Monday, February 26, 2007
too tired to blog.. I just want to let you guys know that its not ur fault but mine.. i'm the cause of everything although I very much do not want it to end this way.. many times i tried to tell myself that this is different from the past but i'm only starting to see more similarities. past experiences have given me a shield so i'm sorry for being the way I am... but thats me and I cant change the fact. Too afraid of being hurt.. to afraid to unmask the harsh reality.. thus, all I can do now is to escape and hope that I will not regret this decision.. I'm just not good enough so I should leave before you see the faults.. and leave a beautiful memory behind until the day I know I can be the friend that everyone cherishes.. the one that deserves a little more attention and alot more care.. perhaps i'll be happier this way...
Sunday, February 25, 2007
oh.. so many days already.. whahaha.. so many things to write about... lets see.. me and sk quarrelled with zhou ren recently and now we're okay.. so i'm really glad and since den my attitude towards everyone changed. for better or worse, it doesnt really matter as long as i'm happier than before.. =) Recently i've been toking to sk.. not lyk the usual crapping sessions but serious conversations.. she thought me never to let anyone influence my thoughts and we should not care about what others prefer and sought to be what they want. so from then, i realised that there is nothing wrong in voicing out and nothing wrong with doing what i want even though most ppl disagree.. =) so i'm really happy now because i am who i am.. and now those lovey dovey stuff is out of my mind and all I have now is my frens and my aspirations to keep me strong.. lately i've been watching hanazakarino kimitachihe... Its damn nice!! lols... wu chun! omg omg.. ella!! omg omg omg.. haha.. i guess tts the real me.. ppl might think getting too absorbed into a taiwan drama serial is childish and off their league.. tell u what.. tts me and deres nothing you can do bout it.. bleh! okay.. tts it.. save more info for the next entry! =D
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Today is valentine's day but apart from that, its just like any other day.. lessons are still boring and life is still hard.. today is one day that I do not feel exceptionally happy or exceptionally depressed. alot of things happened today but i shall only outline the events and try not to add too much emotion into it in case people misunderstand or anything. okay.. so here it goes.. I woke up at 5 am (instead of 2) to finish up my history assignment, so i was half doing and half sleeping at the same time as I was too tired.. due to some misunderstanding (I'm not putting the blame on my mum Mr SUbash!!) i was late again. -.- haiz.. so much for a good start.. so i went around distributing my giant chocky(fake pocky) and many ppl came over and gave me presents to! ^-^ okay.. so lesson goes on as per normal and soon before we know it.. school is over! And so I proceed to volleyball training.. we had a gift exchange and tammy gave me a giraffe keychain.. Thanks! :D Kai ying wasnt here today so I couldnt give her her presents and so I ended up distributing it to bestia, jason and kian wee.. Finally.. or sadly.. as expected, just a matter of time, i'm out of the main 6 bcos a setter from hua yi joined us.. i feel happy as i know that with her presence, our chances are higher and thus I do not have to stress on what am i gonna do so as to be able to receive the ball so as not to let my teammates down. and bcos of this, i'm relieved to have her here.. but obviously, the selfish side of me is depressed, hurt and my morale, once again, falls back to where it initially was.. but of cos that is not going to stop me from going training bcos this is not about getting in to the team, but about sportsmanship, about passion and not letting ourselves down.. and so training was still training.. I broke 2 of my fingernails! ouch.... tts the consequence of being vain and lazy... after training we went for dinner at some ulu place near bukit batok as suggested by xiao ting. we went to eat 'zu chao' which is serving a few dishes with rice. the food wasnt really fantastic and the service was... eh.. i wouldnt comment on this.. but the company was perfect.. :D there was me, bestia, xiao ting, tammy and joleen. it couldnt have been more fun! i really love how friends group together and share food. really interesting and suddenly you feel that bond... after dinner i sat bus 187 to jp with xiao ting and bestia. I was supposed to meet edmund.. really sorry I was late for 1 hr and we ended up missing the movie. I'm really very sorry... So we sat around at macafe and then took a taxi home. okay.. thats all folks.. its 1 30 am now... i'm like really tired so i'm gonna go sleep now...
nitez and happy valentine's day to all.....
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
yes.. It is I.. me in my ordinary self.. I'm a little tired today but I realised that I havent blogged for weeks so I decided to sacrifice a few minutes of beauty sleep to do some serious crapping.. tmr.. feb 14 is valentine's day. A day specially dedicated to all couples to thank each other for being there and making life a little better than before. and to all guys trying to woo the girl of their dreams. For all singles, according to jun ting, we shall all hug each other and cry.. lols.. hey! wads so bad bout being single anyway? no restrictions at all. makes life alot easier actually.. YES! theres training tmr.. and we r gonna do a valentine's day gift exchange :D I wonder who picked me.. hope its not hui ying or she'll probably buy some clown costume for me since she thinks that I am good at entertaining her. Hey its a tough job okay and at least I make ppl laugh.. it aint easy.. well due to a lack of time I had no choice but to buy my stuff from a petrol kiosk. so cheapo rite? Sorry Kai Ying... omg.. its 12 am and i'm too tired for hmwk.. hai! Hack la. i'll jus set my alarm clock and i'll wake up and finish it at 2... sounds lyk a great idea if only i can do it.. lols... hmm.. competition is coming soon and I am not ready for it. I'll have to train harder even though i may not necessarily get into the team when the next batch comes in.. haiz.. schoolwork is crazy... history is a killer.. deres hmwk for every tutorial and judging frm my speed i'll only finish 5 hrs later.. tt is.. if i set my mind on doing it.. :D okay i shld be asleep by now.... happy Valentine's Day :D
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