Tuesday, August 08, 2006
oh my..
never thought tt i wld create a blog somedae.. ahhh... dun think tis wld last long aniwae.. haiz... todae is a realli depressing dae.. went back to sch n everyone said tt i've grown fatter..! ahh.. but tts not tt bad since i have alwaes been fat.. aniwae.. went out wif josephine n joleen 2 pastamania.. den stroll ard town lyk the secondary sch daes... aww.. miss those times.. but evrything doesnt feel the same anymore.. we have a gap between us n nuthin wld b the same again.. todae when we were strolling.. we jus suddenly lost the whole happy mood n drift into depression.. every1 started looking realli tired n bored.. haiz... its been a long time since we went out n now.. haiz.. somehow i dun think the rest miss me lyk i miss ém.. maybe i m thinking too much.. i hope i m.. but evrytime when they reject me when i asked em out.. it onli shows tt my intuition is rite.. i dun realli wanna sae tis out in public but i jus wanna let some1 noe bout my problems... tts all.. i sacrificed ice skating wif my new classmates jus to be wif em ( i realli was enticipating the ice skating thingy b4 they decided on the meeting) n when i got home.. all i can think of is my stupid actions in the dae... my stupid character.. my stupid fate! why is it tt i dun get frens tt really cares?! or wld accept n lyk me 4 hu i m.. hu wldnt point out my flaws.. or mock at me?? i used to think they wld.. their my real frens.. my soulmates... but now.. look at us!! maybe i m not supposed to b in this clique.. maybe i was jus nt gd enuf for em. maybe my existence wld onli bring down their reputation.. maybe.. if i were to sae tis to em.. they'll probably sae i m thinkin too much.. n so will my sec sch frens.. nobody realli understands how its lyk 2 be alone when u r actually wif a grp of frens.. i used to think tt even if i do not have any frens in jj.. its doesnt realli matter since deep inside i m not alone.. but now i have no 1 to really tok 2.. to the extent tt now.. i'm toking to the computer!! jj frens r realli fun to mix wif but they're nv realli dere when u need em.. they'll probably think i have a problem if i jus burst out in tears.. somehow i pity chiwawa.. tt shes ostracized by so many ppl.. i think i'm lyk her.. deep inside.. haiz.. hmm.. lemme try to think of smth fun to cheer me up.. ah! the camp! ahhh..... but i dunno if i m goin or not... haven paid the money yet.. dun noe the packing list... dunno the grps.. haiz.. dunnoe if i m still inside... sounds realli fun though,... nono.. cant sae tt.. everytime i expected smth to turn out fun.. it nv did.. -.- so i'm nt gonna sae anything yet.. :x mouth closed n pray hard... hmm.. so is tt how long an entry shld b? havnt been reading blogs so i dun noe.. hmm.. oh well.. since i have nth to sae alreadi.. i shld jus end here.. feels so much better to get it all out... woo hoo!!~~~
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