Thursday, August 24, 2006
todae... didnt get to smile much.. didnt get a gd laugh.. didnt have anything gd 2 last me throughout the nite.. so i'll jus keep crappin bout sad stuff until i feel better.. hee.. hmm.. todae i took the early bus.. so i sat on the bus alone.. as a result, joleen felt lethargic the whole dae bcos i wasnt dere 2 start her dae! lol!! =( n i didnt get 2 open my mouth too when i was in the bus. lonely... so i listened 2 spirited away n slowly drifted into lalaland.. haiz... had a hard time walking cos my fats r taking over me. plus my bag.. ahh.. i was practically wading ard the sch.. todae is lyk 1 of the earliest daes so when i reached hm.. i managed to get some sleep..before tt i was trying to convince joleen on the reasons of me not wanting to go back to sch on teacher's dae..i'm realli sori if i agitated u but i have my reasons n i hope u'll understand.. i'm not forcing u to not go as well.. in fact. i seriously hoped tt u wld go without me.. cos i realli dun wan to regret meeting em since i dun realli have a gd experience wif the previous outing.. anywae. i'm not realli close to the teachers.. nor the students.. so wad's the point? realli soori... i promise i'll reconsider but pls dun b angry.. haiz.. i'm a failure.. how i wished tt ppl who hate me will come n tell me straight in the face n wake my bloody mind up~!! i'm losing it... tsk tsk.. wait.. where was i? oh.. sleep.. oh.. yes.. speaking bout sleep.. SLEEPING was supposed 2 make me feel recharged when i wake up but NO!! i woke up with a headache.! oh my.. n now.. i'm lost.. dunno wad 2 do nxt.. right now.. i wish there was a slapping machine to slap me real hard so tt my face wld get smaller.. lol.. sori.. tt was rather random.. well.. i guess tts me.. very random n anti-climax.. crazy most of the times... i should realli stop thinking.. its getting scary.. i wouldnt wan 2 scare my frens away.. i do appreciate when they try 2 help though..
i m a failure.. total failure..
4 yrs of secondary education yet no accomplishment..
nothing to call my own
nothing 2 hold back
evrything 2 regret
nothing to ask for..
oh... god of mama!!!!!
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